It has been one week since our beloved Linda was laid to rest. Even now at times it does not feel real. I think that this is just a bad dream, and that when I wake up she will be back with us. But I know in my heart that she is gone, and that is when the pain and loneliness sets in.
I try and keep busy and stay focused on being strong for Reanna and Paige. I draw my strength from my family and friends. They have helped me all along, especially this past week. I am trying to be more active in the girls lives, and be the parent that Linda always tried to help me become.
Reanna is a very strong girl, just like her mother. She appears to be alright and also tries to stay busy. She spends time with her boyfriend Ben and also with her little sisters. I know that she will be starting work sometime soon at Great America. Please continue to pray for her.
Two days ago Reanna and I started going through Linda's belongings in our room. Linda wanted Reanna to have any of her personal property that she wanted. Reanna was unable to find a replica Tiffany necklace that she had given Linda as a gift. The last time any of us had seen it was a few weeks ago near our television in the room. She looked and looked and was unable to find it. She did not tell me, but I know she was very upset. I told her I would continue to look around in my drawers, hoping to find it. She said that she would continue to look in her room. I just hope that while Linda was conscious, she told a friend or family member visiting to put it in a safe place in our room, and that I will be able to locate it and give it to Reanna.
Life is not the same without Linda. We miss her so much.