Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Who Knows?

Who knows how much time I have left? No one really. It could be a few days, a few weeks, a few months? But right now the pain in my body is so bad I don't know how much longer I can handle it. I wake up several times through out the night full of pain, begging and begging for some more pain meds. They just started me on the patches a few days ago, and upped the oxy-contin among some other pain meds that Sebastian and my mom have been managing. I haven't even been staying on top of them that's how out of it I've been. My food intake is also very mininal. I'm lucky if I get 3 bites of cereal. My mouth & lips are always dry and I have to force liquids. Everything going down my throat is painful.

I still read all my messages, but seriously I read them less and less, and obviously respond lesser. I hope all is doing well and please continue to keep me and my family in your prayers.


Hannaemori said...

You are a special person who has touched my life with your warmth and friendship.
You can count on daily prayers from me, and so many who love you. I also give you virtual, painless {{HUGS}}.
Thank you for working thru your pain and blogging. Your strength & consideration of others is admirable & humbling.

Rick Possert Jr. said...

Linda, you and your families are in my prayers every day. You, like my Rachel, are angels to us all. Have faith and may the Lord bless and keep all of you strong and give you the peace and pain relief you deserve. As I have said before; for Sebastian and all of your family, I am here for them all. I can actually say I have been there and I am always available for anything you or they need. You are an inspiration to me and hundreds if not thousands of others. ((Hugs)) from me and I will keep the prayers coming for all of you.
Love and Peace,

Robin Strumlauf said...

Linda - as Patrice and Rick said, you are in so many thoughts and prayers every single day. I've let you know it before but again, even in our short time of knowing each other, you have touched my life with joy. I'm sure you have done the same to others just because you are you. My daily best to you my friend.

Marilyn Tietgens said...

We will be there for your daughter......
We love you and pray that whatever time you have will be surrounded by the warmth and love of your family.
You are always in our prayers.

Love, Marilyn

Linda Applebaum said...

You and the family are in our prayers Linda. I am so sorry the pain your enduring and hope that the patches start working and the new amounts help to make you as comfortable as possible. Please let your mom and sisters know as well as Reanna if there is anything any of you need we are here for you. My heart goes out to everyone of you..

Anonymous said...

Hi Linda,
You do not know me but I have been following your story now since Rich posted your link. I was friends with Rachel.
Be as strong as you can. I can tell from your posts that you have a WONDERFUL LOVING FAMILY and many loving friends. My prayers will continue to happen for your peace and relief of pain.
May GOD bless you and your family. As Rich said, you have touched more people than you know.

Brie Christine said...

It just amazes me at the strength you find to continue to blog and touch so many lives while your life endures so much pain.
I know that over the years our lives took seperate paths but I want you to know that I am very fortunate to call you a long time friend. I pray for you and all those in your life daily. You are an inspiration to many people including myself.
God Bless You~


Anonymous said...

Linda, I think about you and pray for you every single day. I love you and I'm going to try and see you this weekend :)

Ruby Corona

Anonymous said...

Linda, I just recently read on the Delphi BE Cafe site that your cancer has spread and how sick you are. I am so very sorry to hear this. I met you several years ago on the BE cruise and then again last year in NOLA. I knew you were going for addtl surgery after the NOLA trip, but thought things were going well until I saw the message. Please know you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. May God comfort you and give you peace.

Anonymous said...

I think about what you and your family must be going through everyday. I'm so sorry you have to be in so much pain. Thank you for keeping up with your blog. I hope you can feel the love and hugs from us out here in cyberland...i know there's many :)
Stephanie from
Washington State

Anonymous said...

Prayers for you and your family.
Alisa Linton

Anonymous said...


Hospice needs to be very aware that your pain has increased, they will up your pain meds or give you something that will manage your pain better. Im sure you were already aware of that but I wanted to make sure.
You dont have to be strong just try to be present when you can, and when you cant know that your family and friends love you.
Your in my thoughts and prayers.

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